About Me

My name is Daynah  I am an artist, and A lot of my art comes from my anxiety.  Zentangle is one of my favorite ways to meditate, and I do it as often as I can! I have lots of tips on here and personal experiences with anxiety. I was very open and talkative as a child, but through the years things got harder for me to do. I had several experiences that lead to ptsd, and a downhill spiral of emotions.   I didn't like to make phone calls, or even answer the phone. I spent a lot of time by my self, watching tv, or drawing and listening to music (not saying being by yourself is a bad thing, its a great thing! Loving yourself is Key, and how do you get to know yourself? Hang out with yourself!) I  loved Art and Theatre, but I stayed behind the scenes mostly using my art on sets and other projects. The one thing that got me through High School? "The Table" Not just an ordinary table, A magical land on my High School Green where I surrounded with people who liked me EXACTLY for me, I felt Comfor-table ( :-D get it? ) We called it the table because we were the only ones who sat there, it was our table. One time someone tried to take our table (yes, moved OUR table to another part of the green, but we took it back! 

I was very open and talkative as a child, but through the years things got harder for me to do. I had several experiences that lead to ptsd (my family was amazing, No complaints or blaming mom or dad for these traumas, outside sources) and a downhill spiral of emotions.   I didn't like to make phone calls, or even answer the phone. I spent a lot of time by my self, watching tv, or drawing and listening to music (not saying being by yourself is a bad thing, its a great thing! Loving yourself is Key, and how do you get to know yourself? Hang out with yourself!) I  loved Art and Theatre, but I stayed behind the scenes mostly using my art on sets and other projects. The one thing that got me through High School? "The Table" Not just any
ordinary table, A magical land on my High School Green where I surrounded with people who liked me EXACTLY for me, I felt Comfor-table ( :-D get it? ) We called it the table because we were the only ones who sat there, it was our table. One time someone tried to take our table (yes, moved OUR table to another part of the green, but we took it back!
                                                                           
            When high school was over and I was heading up to college, My mom invited EVERYONE over to celebrate and hang out, and even though these were my bestest friends, Love them dearly still till this day.... well... I don't like surprise parties, and really don't like being the center of attention... I hid in my room and cried. I was embarrassed that a party for me with all my friends, I was crying in my room. Why couldn't I go out there? I find that when I am upset I am kind of locked, even if I WANT to go somewhere, I stall, even for a LONG time saying to myself "Ok, lets go out there now"  and " Ok"  and "I can do it"  but I still couldn't go.  I once sat at the top of the stairs for 3 hours afraid to go down after a fight with my mom, well not really a fight, more like a severe panic attack over something someone said, I don't even remember what it is anymore but it took me FOREVER to get the nerve to go downstairs, even to EAT!? And its not that I didn't want to, I just couldn't for some reason.

                Through the years, I found it harder and harder to make lasting friends, But the ones I did find I was grateful to have! THE BEST (this still includes the friends growing u and in high school, I just didn't get to talk to them as much)  I had several traumatic experiences happen, Including getting Robbed while working several times, to neglectful boyfriends, to an abusive one. Still things got harder and harder to deal with, but still I did my best to push through. By this time, it started getting harder to find work, and to go through interviews? Are you KIDDING? I would be sitting in an interview, and They ask a question that I KNOW they will say, expected, (nothing in particular, just basic questions) and for some reason I would burst out into tears!

              At least Throughout this last decade, I have had one of my DEAREST friends who helped me through a LOT. He was literally born in my lap one morning, and I have been with him ever since.  My
Kremlin AKA Creme AKA Bear April 20 2007


family has always had animals in our lives, whether cats, dogs, bunnies, birds, we always had them. And my time in college was the most depressing of all. I believe it may be because that was the only time in my life I didn't have a pet in my life, more than a pet, a friend  and companion. one who always listens and never judges. My mom always called cats Comfort Cats, because when they purr, your worries and sometimes pain just melts away. I deeply believe that people who have severe emotional issues, PTSD, and also people with Autism NEED animal companions in their lives to ease anxiety.                

             Anyway I made this blog to help myself and as well as others through Art and Expression, and tips I read on the internet that help me through.  Though I am not medically trained, I am here as a friend, a fellow sufferer, and I believe in you! 


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