Left ankle hurts like hell.*
I have been insomnious for weeks now, if not months, seriously stressing out over finding another place to live, DESPERATE to get out of the situation I am in. feeling EXTREMELY hopeless, and flat out wish just wasn't ALIVE right now (not dead, not killing my self, but wishing just wasn't alive in this moment) I NEED to get out of this mess I am in. I NEED HELP and I FEEL like I HAVE NO ONE to help, I have people in my life but no SUBSTANTIAL HELP in my life. I am tired of arguments over this same shit over in over and over and over and OVER again. I feel like I am in a mud pit kicking and grasping to get out, and the people are in the pit sitting on the ground getting covered in mud saying there is nothing I can do. THAT is where I am at, THIS is where my mind is right now. THIS is how I feel. Do I just LAY down and LET the mud fall on me? I am putting ALL my energy into making something happen! ALL of my energy! WE WILL find a new place that is affordable, we WILL be successful in the ways WE know how and Want to be. This is what I tell myself EVERY day, trying to paint MOUNTAINS and Homes on a Blank page, but still everything is invisible... I feel entirely alone in my life even with my best friend around. I feel alone in my life because Family doesn't give me time of day unless I personally do something to reach out. I AM TIRED OF BEGGING TO BE BE with MY FAMILY! I am tired of Telling someone to tell someone that I miss them, with NO responses back. I am TIRED of BEGGING to have even one day spent with. & I am REALLY tired of endless arguments with the only person who DOES understand me, but it feels like the never WANT to help. I know MANY people who are too busy in life, but still make time for people. I need FAMILY right now. I need a new place RIGHT now, and I don't mean MONTHS I mean DAYS! And I need help in my life. I need someone to be there, and NOT TO YELL AT ME WHEN I SAY I NEED HELP. I am tired of arguments, I JUST NEED A SOLUTION! HERE it is out to the universe! I need a solution! I am calling out to the universe for a solution. I need a Good Affordable Home so I don't rip my hair out, and end up just wanting to die everyday!
~stressed out and feeling alone... where is Beetlejuice when you need him?
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