Lost, Broken, all Alone
Feeling Miserable, Like I've wasted all this time.
All these years, waiting, hoping, wishing you would care enough
to take the bull by the fucking horns, Your life is in YOUR hands,
but you Don't, You didn't, did you ever THINK I'd be OK with being BARELY OK?
I'M NOT FINE
I'm NOT FINE with a life filled of stress, worry, and feeling USED
Did you ever think that maybe I want to be GREAT?
AMAZING? I WANT TO FUCKING THRIVE
and here I left you and you won't even leave. Get Up, Get OUT, or get some FUCKING DRIVE?
I NEED life to make me FEEL ALIVE
Breaking up with toxic love is like
Falling in love with yourself.
No one's going to MAKE you happy, MAKE you safe,
MAKE you feel the respect you deserve til you STAND up Stand Tall Shout it OUT
I NEED ME MORE THAN YOU DO
I NEED ME MORE THAN YOU DO
Better hope you learn to help yourself,
Because I've waited and waited and I just can't be here for you
Anymore
And don't you Dare say it's cuz I didn't believe in you
I had faith, I invested, even when things were WORSE than tough
I love me more than you did, it's obvious,
because I respect myself enough
to not make these tired excuses,
day after day, week after week, year after year
like you've been doing the last SEVERAL years. (YEARS?!)
I gave you nearly a Decade, and all I got in return was greif,
I was the problem, I was the nag, I was the one that was overreacting
cuz I just couldn't HANDLE the blatant avoidance
always heard but never listened, now you want to turn it on me...
Never could you step up, never could you back up
what you always promised me,
to love me, protect me, AS WELL as make me feel secure, NOT INSTEAD
you never did that... yea that's why i'm not so sure
that I could ever disrespect myself like that again.
I love myself more than that.
I guess I just needed ME more than you did
I just NEED ME more than YOU did.
#SparkleP8nter #poem #music #songs #lyrics #feelings #breakup #financialabuse #feelingused
Written & Published
Winter of
2020/2021
