Alone In Public

 Alone in Public  

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April 30, 2015

I don't now how to title this The best I can come up with is Alone in Public.... but here is something, a poem of sorts, that I wrote in 2007

(though it still applies today, sometimes)

I get Restless, Antsy with chills, almost anger. My eyes start to hurt, and fill with tears I cannot control. I feel displaced. I don't Belong. I always feel so alone in public settings. I feel like a lost dog, wonder "where do I go, where are my friends? what do I do now??"

It always happens like this.

Someone invites me, I go along following the one person I know, but they always take off and do their own thing, leaving me alone.

I can't take this feeling, this anxiety running through my veins, and pouring out my eyes. I feel so stupid when I am all alone, so insecure. So I Write. Alone. To keep me looking busy. So I don't have to explain why I am so upset. I don't like crying in public. I don't want to be alone  I don't want my blood boiling, or be restless and covering my face so no one looks at me. I want to be excited, full of life, able to talk to anyone! I don't want this FEAR anymore.

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Anyone out there feel the same sometimes?

or am I alone in this too?

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